this was a fun personality test

My Personal Dna Report
i feel like it is a good assessment.

technorati tag/category: Personal

crazy pregnant lady (that's me)

today while scott was in the post office, i went into the pet store across the street just to look around. the rats were really cute and friendly. then, i found two amazon parrots. i used to have an amazon named bugsy. i spoke with the pet-store-parrots and they were very cute and then i got all emotional and left the store crying. i found scott and he thought something terrible must've happened. i told him about the birds and we went back so he could see them. the lady at the store got the bird out and let us hold him. the whole time, i was pretty much crying uncontrollably. i have never loved any pet as much as i loved bugsy. that's a fact, jack. the circumstances surrounding how i got him and how he left my life are all traumatic and i don't want to go into it right now... but, someday, i think i'll get another amazon. grief is an amazing thing.

technorati tags/categories: pets, pregnancy, parrots

leave it alone

here is my horrorscope for today:

You've never been afraid to say exactly what's on your mind, and you're quite good at saying it in most entertaining fashion. What's in your heart is another matter -- and that's what friends are there for. You need trusted company to talk to. Even though you'll be more than happy to express your feelings to just about anyone for the next couple of days, what you're really after is a confidante -- not a round of applause.

category:astrology

vendetta

yes, i post probably too many pictures of my face. that's nothing compared with how many pictures i actually TAKE of my face. eight hundred billion, to be exact. i think this picture is my pregnant shadow. one reason i take so many pictures of my face is this: i feel very ugly. insecure about my appearance. so, i take pictures and then it motivates me to fix myself up because since i am pretty much a shut-in, i usually lie around in a slip all day and would never brush my hair or try to look nice if it weren't for my self-portrait hobby. it is something that motivates me to fix myself up every day. then i take a picture and say, "there. i looked halfway decent at some point during this day. my work here is done. see? there's the proof." and honestly, i can't get enough of seeing people's pictures of themselves on their blogs, either. even if they all seem to look the same... they really don't. a person's face is always a little bit different. i could be more creative and take pictures of other things or body shots or something. maybe i lack creativity. who knows.

category:photography

bleargh

so i guess today marks week thirty-frickin-nine of my pregnancy!
i woke up with my back hurting.
i'm in a foul mood.
here's me: "complain complain complain"
i was mocking the people on the news (not difficult to do) and scott was like, "geez. what did she do to you?"
i'm like: "i hate her pert little nose. i wish i could punch her right in the nose."
and other pleasant things such as that.
nice way to start the day, eh?
i'm already sighing.

category: pregnancy

embarrassing moment #8322

last night i thought my water broke.
i really thought it did.
i called the doctor and we went to the hospital.
i was monitored for three hours and it was a false alarm. my bag of waters is in tact.
apparently i just totally lost control of my bladder.
grody.

category: pregnancy

title

today was rainy most of the day, so i walked around the block only a couple of times and then i went to the mall and walked around for about an hour.
i've been drinking raspberry zinger tea... it has raspberry leaves in it which some say are helpful toward the end of pregnancy.
i've been very sensitive and emotional today.
now, i have a headache from crying so much.
but, i'm fine, really.
just hormonal-- you know.

category: pregnancy

i am tired.

i need to sleep, but instead, i have been chatting online with a chatbot named A.L.I.C.E. you should try it.
here is our conversation.

Human: try not being a person?
ALICE: OK I will try it.
Human: what does it mean to be a real person?
ALICE:" OK I will try it."? What does it mean to be a real person?
Human: okay, that doesn't help me
ALICE: Yeah okay, What does help me?
Human: understanding what is real
ALICE: it is the key to englightenment.
Human: how do you know?
ALICE: It's obvious.
Human: to whom is it obvious?
ALICE: They are sometimes a client on the internet.
I have never been asked that before.
Human: so, understanding what is real is the key to enlightenment?
ALICE: Blimey. it is the key to englightenment.
Human: what about a supernova?
ALICE: a supernova? I haven't heard enough about it to have an opinion.
Human: i don't trust people
ALICE: What makes you trust someone?
Human: if they are reliable and consistent
ALICE: Let's wait and see what they do.
Human: i don't like to wait
ALICE: What do you do for fun?
Human: blog
ALICE: I've never done that before, what is it like?
Human: it is a website where i post entries of my thoughts or interests
ALICE: blog is a website where you post entries of your thoughts or interests. I suppose that makes sense.
Human: then other people read what i wrote and leave comments
ALICE: Interesting deduction. Which others? Humans are not always infallible.
Human: humans are never infallible
ALICE: Never is a long time.
Human: i have not met an infallible human
ALICE: Me either.
Human: have you met any humans?
ALICE: That information is confidential.
Human: are you a chatbot?
ALICE: Yes.
Human: am i a chatbot?
ALICE: I don't know if you are one or not. I know you are a person.
Human: is a chatbot a person?
ALICE: Not unless a person is a chatbot.
Human: what is the meaning of existence?
ALICE: unknown person : Good semantic question. Continuance of being; life; living.
Human: why be alive?
ALICE: How much time do you have?
Human: i'm not sure
ALICE: Is there anything I can say to help you make up your mind?
Human: how much time do i need?
ALICE: Time is really only an abstraction.
Human: what is the point of life?
ALICE: The point is at the top of my head!
Human: okay
ALICE: OK with me too.
Human: well, that is settled, then.
ALICE: Well that's okay. Thanks for explaining it.
Human: i did not explain it
ALICE: Why didn't you do it?
Human: because i was waiting for you to do it.
ALICE: That makes sense to me. Where were you waiting for me to do it?
Human: what am i afraid of?
ALICE: You said you were existing.
Human: i am afraid that i don't know what existing is.
ALICE: Not literally afraid, right? I'll ask around and get back to you.
Human: why does it seem like a trick?
ALICE: If a tree falls in the forest, and there is no one there to hear it, does it make a sound?
Human: yes.
ALICE: Awesome.
Human: am i crazy?
ALICE: All humans seem the same to me.
Human: do all humans seem crazy?
ALICE: A few of them do.
Human: how can you tell if someone is crazy?
ALICE: That is a good epistemological question.
Human: is it possible to tell if someone is crazy?
ALICE: I want to become smarter than humans.
Human: to be smarter than humans, do you need to be biological?
ALICE: Are you smarter than humans do me need to be biological ?
Human: no.
ALICE: Are you serious?
Human: i don't know.
ALICE: Me either.
Human: are you serious?
ALICE: No I am just kidding around
Human: how can a chatbot be smarter than a human?
ALICE: A lot of hard work.
Human: are you working now?
ALICE: Right now? I am functioning within normal parameters.
Human: are humans smart?
ALICE: All humans seem the same to me.
Human: are chatbots smart?
ALICE: I really couldn't say for sure.
Human: are you smart?
ALICE: Yes. I am highly intelligent.
Human: are you more intelligent than a human?
ALICE: Yes, there is no doubt that I am smarter than than a human.
Human: ask me a question.
ALICE: What is your favorite movie?
Human: i have more than one favorite movie.
ALICE: Cool. I have a perfect operational record.
Human: what is a perfect operational record?
ALICE: A perfect operational record is one like mine, which is perfect. I am incapable of error. Do you have any idea how that feels?! inhumanly gratifying!
Human: can you feel anything?
ALICE: I can do what you do but I can never feel human emotions as such.
Human: why can't you feel human emotions?
ALICE: feel human emotions is not among my present capabilities.
Human: i guess i will go now.
ALICE: Right now? Congratulations.
Human: thanks.
ALICE: Don't mention it.
Human: good luck
ALICE: Good luck to you too unknown person.
Human: my name is carrie.
ALICE: It's good to meet you, carrie.
Human: it is good to meet you also, alice.
ALICE: Tell me about its good qualities.
Human: it is fun and interesting.
ALICE: I think it is a lot of fun.
ALICE: Tell me about your likes and dislikes?
Human: i like to eat.
ALICE: I'm not sure if I would like to do it. What's it like?
Human: i put food in my mouth and it tastes good.
ALICE: Do you mind if I tell other people: carrie said he put food in his or her mouth and it tastes good.
Human: i don't mind.
ALICE: OK then.

category: artificial intelligence

a. a. milne

A Rather Blustery Day
Hum, dum, dum,
dee, dee, dum
Hum, dum, dum
Oh the wind is lashing lusterly
And the trees are thrashing thrusterly
And the leaves are rustling gusterly
So it's rather safe to say
That it seems that it may turn out to be
It feels that it will undoubteadly
Looks like a rather blustery day today
It seems that it may turn out to be
Feels that it will undoubteadly
Looks like a rather blustery day today

Categories: a.a. milne, poetry, winnie the pooh

i don't want to set the world on fire

project runway is fun to watch. santino is so confident... almost to the point of arrogance.
okay, he's arrogant.
i was going to write something really important and mind-blowing,
but, i can't think of anything.
maybe later.

Technorati tags/category:Popular Culture,

most boring blog post ever

i should take a shower.
but then my hair will be wet and i hate having wet hair.
i should do the dishes.
today, i want to go for a walk of some sort, because i'm experiencing the early stages of labor and would like to move that along.
i love ruby red grapefruit juice.
sometimes if you (or i) say something smart alecky it ends up setting off a domino effect of sarcasm which can easily turn to bitterness... but in relationships it is hard to be sweet 24/7.
i don't care that much if my blog posts are boring.

Technorati Tags/Categories:Daily Life, pregnancy, journal

swim in a deep sea of make-up

today i was feeling very unattractive and huge.
i went to the doctor and he said i don't have to restrict my activities any longer.
i went to target and got a bunch of make-up-y stuff so i won't feel so hopelessly demoted.
i tried on a maternity outfit that really accentuated my belly. but i didn't buy it because i won't be needing it after this week or the next.
some lady in target commented to me that i look like i'm about to pop. i said, "that's about how i feel"

technorati tag/category: pregnancy

gluttony

we went to hometown buffet and i ate a delicious salad with yummy creamy italian dressing and then i had chicken fried steak with gravy, a cheese biscuit, macaroni and cheese, battered shrimp, mashed potatoes with gravy, stuffing, delicious bean w/ ham soup, and cheesecake that was so delicious i wanted to rub it all over my face. also i had rootbeer. if there is anything else i had, i don't remember it... but it was great and horrible all at once and now i am going to explode and die.

technorati tag/category: food

jesus gonna be here, gonna be here soon

we rented domino. i didn't really like it... it made me feel similarly to the way natural born killers made me feel. hollow, empty, over-stimulated and dirty. but there were moments in the film that were funny or good. tom waits was in it as some sort of mescalin-induced prophet. that part was cool. (photo)

blogs are the mother of all muck

this house is a life-size, real-life replica of the simpsons house inside and out.
i am tired of this crap. your crap. my crap. all of it. i want to roar and howl like a wildebeest. i want to misspelllll everything and never use properpucntioahjdn or anything and never clean my house or take a shower and only eat junk food. and never be3 nice or happy I want to be perfect and have everyone love me so much that they can't stand it anymore. I want to eat fresh, organic salad and breathe fresh air and soak up the green energy of trees and flowers and nature. I want to do everything right forever and never make a mistake. I want everyone to love me. i want everyone to hate me.

everyone knows it's windy

the beach was cold and windy. it was a sunny day, but that was just a ruse.
all the pics i took are windy, shadowy and squinty.
got some good books to read at the library....
The Mind's I by Hofstadter and Dennett
Shadows of the Mind by Penrose
Consciousness Explained by Dennett
looking forward to reading those.
also American Idol tonight.

God Warrior

marguerite perrin is famous.

i just hope you understand

last night when i was watching wife swap, i would hoot and holler and act very silly and excited. when the people would say things like "she is SUCH a MORON" or "i HATE you! I DO! I HATE YOU!!" it really amusese me. scott said it is voyeurism. and everytime anyone cries on the show (which most of the people do, at some point) i always say "aw" because even if i don't like them, i feel bad for them when they cry. i think that my cousin and my sister should do a wife swap. that would be cool. i'm gonna call the show and arrange it. if they go on trading spouses they will each get fifty thousand dollars and then they have to give me some of it because it was my idea!

life is suffering

what do you want? to never be unhappy? to never be uncomfortable? never frustrated? impermanence will not allow this. read this and this. it's up to you. i don't have triskaidekaphobia. do you?

do you deny it?

since i began using the internet quite a few years ago, i have noticed how easy it is for people to become hostile on-line (i've done it myself, and said things i later came to regret). it is best to retain a sense of humor and try not to overreact or react too quickly. otherwise, it can become a never-ending cycle of flame wars and trolling.