i love a parade

Most of life is routine - dull and grubby, but routine is the momentum that keeps a man going. If you wait for inspiration you'll be standing on the corner after the parade is a mile down the street. Ben Nicholas

today, we went to a parade. It was a pretty lame parade. but still kinda fun.

I have senioritis. i do not desire to go to my classes most of the time, now. i'm just waiting for the semester to be over with. watched Heavy Metal, cuz my sister said she's into it lately. I'd seen it years ago, but Scott had never seen it-- so we watched it. lots of cartoon boobies.

today i did a guest post on someone else's blog. neato!

cellophane

I keep obsessing over the presentation I did today. Just re-living random memories-- allowing my memory to focus in and scan over it. I felt less nervous than I thought I would and I feel like I did better than I thought I would. watched the movie Criminal (Maggie Gyllenhaal) last night. It was cool. I like that dude Mr. Cellophane. So after some red wine with Funyons & Cheetos (whiskey tango), I decided that if I were going to be a criminal, I'd want to rob robbers. But, I guess that's not new. What with Robin Hood and all. Before I started blogging, when I used to just write in a journal, often I would start to daydream and my journal entries ended up being mainly drawings, which is why I think it's totally natural that I've begun to integrate more of that doodling aspect into my blog as of late. yep-diddly-ep.

so wonderful

has this ever happened to you?

I just had the absolute most brilliant idea of my career (what career? you may ask) my career as a thinking human but anyway i had the BEST most brilliant idea and it had something to do with a series of 3 things but it was like a play on the phrase "signed, sealed and delivered" but it wasn't that and whatever it was it was clever and funny and I was so Proud of it and i was gonna draw a picture of it and then i got distracted and lost the thought and i tried and tried to retrace my mental steps back to when the thought entered my brain but it was gone! nothing will bring it back! LOST forever in the ether of lost thoughts!!!!!! I have never felt this frustrated about losing an idea and i feel so helpless and it's an injustice and i feel like it must be the early stages of alzheimers! but what can I do?

why? this website is awesome what is wrong with looking human?

Birth

I had to pause the movie because it was so upsetting to me. Here are some very good statements about the movie:

Sure the storyline of the film is a bit creepy and has undertones of pedophilia, ....some scenes will have audiences rolling in the aisle's laughing, as will much of the film's limited amount of dialogue. .... Just why does young Sean feel he's Anna's husband? And just how did he know how to gain access to her life? These questions and many others are never explored. Instead, Glazer spends an enormous amount of time setting up shots and lingering on things like facial close-ups, sometimes in upwards of what seems to be two minutes at a time. Pacing is deliberately slow, and while the first hour – which did have some merit – went by at a decent rate, the last 45 minutes dragged on and on. It just seemed as though nothing new happened and when something did occur, I could have cared less.

I found my self wondering why they felt it was necessary to make this movie? I really don't think it's worth finishing. I wouldn't have rented it if I'd have known! bleck!

i like to make drawrings

inspired by r.e.m.

now i will go
watch the twisted
movie

where nicole kidman's
 husband is
reincarnated
as a little boy.

i've been working on making a power point presentation so tomorrow i can give my presentation and it is turning out really well. i'm happy about that. but, i've spent the morning pretty much goofing off on the computer as you can see by my drawring.

a public service announcement

Scott drew this big tank. If you click on it it will take you to Graffiti Wall where you can help all the poor, unoriginal people who normally frequent that website won't you send them an influx of originality? contribute your creativity to the wider world? Thank you and goodnight.

the lard is good to me and so i thank the lard

Oh, the lard is good to me and so I thank the lard For giving me the things I need The sun, and the rain and the apple tree. The lard is good to me.

--Johnny Appleseed I used to think it was so funny when i was a kid that it sounded like johnny appleseed was saying "lard" instead of "Lord" and that cracked me up.

Speak harshly to your little boy And beat him when he sneezes He only does it to annoy Because he knows it teases --Achoo!

i don't know what to tell you

"Those whose approval you seek most give you the least."-- Maurice Chevalier

I wish that I were cool enough to like totally just randomly type stuff and have it be really cool without my even having to try. it's strange how I am so totally antisocial. There is a part of me that wants to be a giddy little schoolgirl whenever I see people I know and I will imagine running up to them and saying "HI!!!!!! What's up!" and being all goofy like I was in high school. Instead, I just act like I didn't see anyone and try to seem totally engrossed in some important thought that has totally occupied me to the exclusion of all else. I wish I could just be totally gay and people would say, "She is my FAVORITE!" But, sometimes, when People don't have to even try in order for people to like them... those people really have no clue why it is that they are liked. Like, in Alfie. It's like, Jude Law's character is really not very likeable at all. The only reason people like him is cuz they are able to project all of their fantasies onto him. Not for who he is, but for whom they imagine him to be for THEM. ANd once he is considered the outdated model because people are looking for the new and improved, younger version of him, he realizes that his sense of self-worth came entirely from outside of him! so, see? it can kind of backfire. nobody has it ALL good. if you depend on other ppl for your sense of self-worthiness and for their approval... you will lose integrity. you won't know who you are. and besides,

I have a 5-6 pg paper due today. I started writing it yesterday. I am supposed to be finishing it up right now. This is when my mind starts wanting to think up really creative ways to avoid focusing on the task at hand. It's not that I have ADD, just Selective Attention. sometimes i feel like i am just so boring. i want to be more interested in me? it seems like i am boring. or unoriginal. i want to do something cool. but i can't think of anything. and i don't want to do the stuff that i am supposed to do.

qi whiz

Feng Shui and the Search for Meaning in a Troubled World

Have you ever eaten a pickled egg?

Last night, we walked to the convenience store for some snacks. We got a 6-pack of Pacifico, a lime, a lemon, some Ben & Jerry's, and more... but, when we were paying, I noticed a big jar of pickled eggs on the counter. I remembered a scene in Dances with Wolves where this guy has a jar of pickled eggs & he's eating them and it fascinated me the way the vinegar swished around and that jarful of perfect bouncy white eggs. But also, it seems like they'd be kinda gross. I want to try one, but I didn't buy one last night. I dunno. Pickled eggs kind of scare me. It's like eating crickets or something.

Dane Cook is funny.

i think it's cute This is another one.

quiz results

i am dynamite unstable and explosive ;-)

this is a picture we got in the mail right when we got back from getting our picture taken at the mall. this one was taken by Scott's Aunt, in San Mateo. We should get our studio portraits back today. they took tons of pictures and it was kind of embarrassing, but kind of fun. awkward is the word.

no two alike Last night we saw Fever Pitch. It was good. Very now. Drew looks super skinny-- it was weird. Looked a little gaunt, to me. This morning, for Scott's birthday, we went out to breakfast . the omelette house looked pretty packed from the parking lot, so we opted for Golden Harvest, where the service was so slow, we may as well have stayed at the first place-- it'd've taken just as long. I got 1/2 lb of Seafoam Candy (Honeycomb)-- mi favorita. Now we are going to go see The Interpreter. The preview for it looked pretty good. After that, we have an appointment at the mall to get our portrait taken. that makes us nervous. but, it should be fun.

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these remind me of those jelly bracelets from the '80's. they have all different kinds.

this is interesting

ran across this very interesting blog post today.

gratitude blog

Pholph's Scrabble Generator My Scrabble© Score is: 22. What is your score? Get it here.

I started this separate blog as a gratitude blog because gratitude is supposed to be good for you.

hate to break it to ya

but, this is why diamonds are bad.

take a peek at denial

farmer's market and auction. Denial: it's not just a river in Egypt. har. har. har. I call this: Mother and Child

Bikey and Reese's do not like Teddy. there are only pretty much two weeks left of the semester and then finals. Happily, my Middle Eastern cultures final is Take-home. schwank. However, I must write a paper for that class which is due on Monday. this does not please me. I am going to do a book report on either The Thief and the Dogs or Miramar, both by Naguib Mahfouz. neither of which have I read, by the way... Also, next Thursday, I have to give a presentation in my ethnography class. I am not known to do well with such things. I have the worst stage fright I've ever seen.

I like the cartoon Home Movies.

quite contrary

I just watched the movie Conceiving Ada. I enjoyed it. I will offer one disclaimer…. I am aware that it is not the kind of movie everyone will like. Especially most guys. If you were going to put it on its own special channel it would be Sci-Fi Lifetime: Science Fiction for Women. I found it very therapeutic, personally. Also, interesting in the whole idea of what kind of cultural evolution could come about because of technology. I imagine most ppl would really find it lame, but I enjoyed it in an after-school special kind of way.

The vanity of others runs counter to our taste only when it runs counter to our vanity. --Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche

my breakfast: coffee tang strawberry moon pie doritos leftover pizza! yowzas!!!!! I'm a health nut!

snicker

...and now a random fact about Vin Diesel: Vin Diesel actually painted all the works of Michelangelo, but lost them to said "artist" after he bet that he could drink the entire ocean. Diesel almost succeeded, but gagged on a giant squid at the last moment.

"Beneath the social mask we wear every day, we have a hidden shadow side: an impulsive, wounded, sad, or isolated part that we generally try to ignore. The Shadow can be a source of emotional richness and vitality, and acknowledging it can be a pathway to healing and an authentic life. We meet our dark side, accept it for what it is, and we learn to use its powerful energies in productive ways. The Shadow knows why good people sometimes do "bad" things. Romancing the Shadow and learning to read the messages it encodes in daily life can deepen your consciousness, imagination, and soul."--c.g. jung

shadow work

Sleepy Sleepy Sleepy. I just keep feeling sleepy and my back also hurts because I don’t take care of myself as well as I should with scoliosis. I planted some spring flowers . My eyes burn. Need to do the dishes. It’s my turn. Need to study. I’ve been wanting to pick some lilacs from up the street. They’re dark purple. There are so many of them growing on that lilac tree. Today, I went out in public dressed like someone who does not want to look sexy. I just didn’t care at all. Went to the dollar store. I got over 1000 stickers and some nail polish

my pig

ambivalent zen

Friday, we finally went to see Sin City. I admire the movie. I really enjoy Brittany Murphy's face. I didn't understand some of the movie. It was very violent, but reminded me of Kill Bill. I could see the 'graphic-novel'-esque elements. Unrealistic, crazily sexual Amazons scanitly clad and heavily armed. all in all, it's a worthy film. complex. all morning, I've been trying to download the song You Must Love Me. It's been a pain in the bum. It looks like I'm going to get it, here, though and then my efforts will be rewarded and I will be momentarily satiated. It seems sometimes like I'll do anything to avoid studying for midterms. The more I need to study the more I avoid it like the plague. Tomorrow is my Middle Eastern cultures midterm. I think I have about a "C" in that class. "C"'s are bad. I need to be studying. I have like a phobia or something. makes life difficult. 'specially when I need to graduate this year!!!!!!!

an interview with Christopher Guest. I didn't know who he was.

living in the shadow

a familiar scene death and destruction are natural, essential and life fostering aspects of nature

so norcal

My hat is from Tibet. Made in Nepal.

Friday Night Lights

Watched Friday Night Lights last night. It's hard for me to completely focus all my attention on football, but the movie was well-done and I liked it. I liked it. It is very real. I like Billy Bob Thornton as an actor. I will be graduating in December. My career as an undergraduate will come to a close. I am going to be taking lots of cool classes this summer and in the Fall. This summer: Anthropology of Religion Theoretical perpective and modes of analysis of religious belief systems and practices. Focus: preliterate and peasant religions, including ritual, magic, and symbol systems. Race, Racism & Philosophy A philosophical study of the conceptual, metaphysical, moral, and social political issues surrounding race and racism. Fall: Anthropological Theory Seminar on development of anthropological theory. Philosophical/scientific foundations of anthropological perspectives: from Plato, Radcliffe- Brown, Levi-Strauss, Sartre, Kuhn, and Searle to postmodernism/cultural critique. Geography of the Mediterranean Its role in history and contemporary issues. Emphasis on underlying cultural and ecological unity despite differences of politics, economics, and religion. Language and Culture Scope and variety of linguistic research. Emphasis on crosscultural comparison and relation of languages Living Myths Examines how a culture’s “sacred stories” express worldview, guide behavior, and empower personal quests for meaning. Sections offered under the following themes: War and Peace, Quest for Self, Beyond the Hero.

on censorship

I wrote this on a discussion board for one of my classes in response to a post from another student defending Free Speech and denouncing all forms of censorship. This is a subject which inflames my passions and brings out the Devil's Advocate in me. Here is what I posted:

If the Lumberjack is a newspaper, that does not exclude it from its dual role as a public relations tool. You may feel that it is not meant to serve such a role, but in reality, that is one purpose it does serve. I do agree that an open public forum is healthy for individuals and the Lumberjack should be open to all points of view which are reflected back to it—including the points of view of parents, administrators, and students of all types (not just the 20 yr old ones). Some form of censorship is an inescapable part of life. If students want to publish sex manuals, they can start an underground publication for that, but it should not represent HSU as the State Institution that it is. I am not advocating total censorship. I just think it is overly idealistic to think that the Lumberjack should be some sort of free-for-all. Checks and Balances should go both ways. I greatly enjoy this topic and appreciate all opinions surrounding it.

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Cookie Fleck

God Loves A Terrier I really like this movie. It is so funny and weird. :-) Last night, we watched Spanglish. We really didn't like it very much. It had attractive actors, but the story was weak to me.