i need lots of therapy

sometimes i wonder when i will be able to stop being me. it gets old, it really does. sometimes i just want to be grouchy and negative and stop trying to be positive and happy. happiness is overrated, you know. i feel tempestuous and wrathful, sometimes. i just want to curse everything and everyone within a million mile radius. stupid everything! nobody understands. nobody cares! i don't even understand or care, so how can anyone else? i'm awake. that annoys me. buzz off! (but not really)