it's genetic

i feel so incapable of living life. i really do.
how do people do it?
it's like there is just something innately wrong with me.
i don't do the things i should.
i've no motivation, no self-discipline.
i feel like crap most of the time.
what good is it going to do to say it again?
sorry for being bummed.
sorry for being a debbie downer.
i can't escape myself and my responsibilities, even if i fail miserably at fulfilling them.