Tuesday, August 31, 2004

I'm Just a Girl

The reason I am not an art major: I HATE PERSPECTIVE! YUK! YUK! YUK! Infinity. I do not like to use a ruler when I draw and I do not like to draw straight lines or empty friggin' hallways! I got myself all worked up into a tizzy over the assignment of drawing a hallway and my teacher said I was having a meltdown. Oy Vey! Lately, I have been very grouchy, it seems. I was totally peeved yesterday because my teacher made us get into small groups and discuss our reading assignment. I absolutely despise when teachers do that! To me, it is such a waste of time and such a cop-out! See what a negative creep I'm being? Complain, complain, complain.

Monday, August 30, 2004

Fun Quiz

Thoroughly Antisocial

You think people suck and that they are fairly stupid. You avoid large social gatherings like the plague. Maybe you tolerate a friend if they drop by to say hi. Congratulations, we might like you!

How antisocial are you?


Okay, for like 14 years I have been sort of transfixed by digital clocks when they show the time 11:11. There are actually a lot of people who feel this way and this has been written about in some strange books and on this weird website. And this one. And this one, too. For more: Google 11:11.

wasting time

I'm happy because I've found a place to rent. I am supposed to be moving out of my current place by Sept. 15th. It was a summer sublet. I really enjoyed living there-- the price was right and my roommates have all been great. They are even the ones who referred me to my new situation. The rental situation is not great in Arcata-- it's not always easy to find a place. So, I am grateful.

Thursday, August 26, 2004

What To Say?

Feelings fluxuate and are fast to fade Sometimes it seems like nothing ever stops changing. Thoughts about things tend to tread on my toes. Can I compartmentalize this? Are my ideas about what happens the same thing as the actual events? Do I have any idea what is going through your head? You make no sense. I make no sense. One thing I do know: I'm Emo! (or I'm a poser).

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

Pride Cometh Before A Fall

I was racing to try and catch a bus to Eureka to buy these pants when I suddenly tripped and went flying through the air and crashed hard onto the pavement scratching the skin off both knees, a shoulder, elbow and hip. Ouch! I was carrying too many things and rushing. Needless to say, I missed the bus and spent the next half hour in the nurse's office getting cleaned up. Brother! I guess the universe didn't want me to have those pants today! I certainly have no motivation now to go after them. Maybe tomorrow. :-(

Monday, August 23, 2004


"Insanity -- a perfectly rational adjustment to an insane world." -R. D. Lang School starts today. I am excited about that! Lots of energy. Lots of new people to look at. Lots of new stuff to learn! Yippee-kay-yay! "We do not have to visit a madhouse to find disordered minds; our planet is the mental institution of the universe." -Johann von Goethe

Friday, August 20, 2004


"Someone's boring me. I think it's me." Dylan Thomas (1914 - 1953), in Rayner Heppenstall, Four Absentees (1960).

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

Burning Man

There's something interesting about this to me from an anthropological and artistic standpoint, but from a social standpoint, it gives me the heebie jeebies. I become overwhelmed just imagining myself going to this event. I could only consider it if I had a specific purpose, like doing a study or report or something. Other than that, part of me thinks that it is totally ridiculous and unnatural; but, how can I judge it? I've never been there. I'd be afraid to go unless I had a way to escape it. One thing I don't like is excess of anything. I think Burning Man is excessive. Excess of lust, population, decoration, intoxication, etc. Perhaps that is also true of society at large. Especially interesting to me is the photo gallery. Check it out.

Thursday, August 12, 2004

Stop Making Sense

I have a ticket to go see David Byrne next Wednesday! I haven't been to a concert in many years. Maybe ten years? I don't remember. No wait.... five years ago I saw Sarah Brightman which was otherworldly.

Easily Amused

A friend sent me this link. Have fun!

Anna of the Five Towns

I just picked up this book at the HSU bookstore. I bought it because it was $3 and I wanted to read a book that is unlike what I habitually read (rarely novels). So, I'm expecting that it will change my life. If it does not fulfill that expectation, hopefully it will at least distract me long enough to give me a different perspective on life. That is my hope.

Sunday, August 08, 2004


A friend of mine introduced me to Bukowski, whose poetry I find disturbing. On Grief

Saturday, August 07, 2004

Tao Te Ching

The greatest misfortune is desire. The greatest burden is greed. The greatest curse is discontent. Only those who know when enough is enough will ever have enough.

Thursday, August 05, 2004

I can relate

This is an exerpt from an article I just read: Read at Your Own RiskHas Dr. Seuss' legacy hobbled America's literacy crusade? By Ann Hulbert. "...a crucial prerequisite (as well as product) of being a real reader: a sense of privacy. One thing the old-fashioned didactic regimen granted children was the thrilling feeling that their imaginative business with books was their own." "Truly absorbing, addictive reading of imaginative writing is intensely private and, in a social sense, escapist. "Serious readers aren't reading for instruction," as an anthropologist at work studying American literary habits told novelist Jonathan Franzen. Devoted readers are hoping for a chance to discover, in the narrated lives of other selves, what it's like to be an individual confronting the unpredictable. Maybe it's time to stop spreading fears about "reading at risk," and try generating more excitement about reading at your own risk. How? I wish I could say you could look it up, but you can't." Good schtuff!

Words, words, words....

It's the place where my prediction from the sixties finally came true: "In the future everyone will be famous for fifteen minutes." I'm bored with that line. I never use it anymore. My new line is, "In fifteen minutes everybody will be famous." Andy Warhol, Andy Warhol's Exposures (1979) "Studio 54"

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

One Ring To Rule Them All

Last night, we played The Lord of the Rings Drinking Game, which was very funny. While watching the movie, you have to drink whenever practically anything happens... or doesn't. People even started making up new reasons to drink. The best thing that came out of it for me was that I (mostly) memorized this poem.