Friday, September 30, 2005
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Thursday, September 29, 2005
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Wednesday, September 28, 2005
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
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Monday, September 26, 2005
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Saturday, September 24, 2005
so, i got a hundred percent on my last map quiz, but this week i have another one on all the mountains, islands, bodies of water, rivers and peninsulas in the mediterranean. it's kinda ridiculous, but it is an exhilarating feeling to take the test when you know the answers. today, we watched the godfather while i ate gobfather ice cream. al pacino was sooo young in 1972. it took me a while to really accept that it was him.
Posted by carrie at 9/24/2005 08:18:00 PM
Friday, September 23, 2005
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Thursday, September 22, 2005
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Wednesday, September 21, 2005
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Tuesday, September 20, 2005
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Monday, September 19, 2005
lately i've been having really vivid, clear dreams in HDTV. lots of detail. there were these spiders last night in my dream that i was watching very closely. they had lots of webs all over the surface of this river and one of the spiders ate a lizard so fast it was in the blink of an eye. all that was left of the lizard was its entire skin-- in tact. i picked it up and pulled on the tail. the spider had cleaned it out very nicely.
Posted by carrie at 9/19/2005 12:17:00 PM
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Sunday, September 18, 2005
yesterday, after the weighty lord of war, i wanted to see a chick flick so i saw just like heaven. it was fun. i enjoyed it. napoleon dynamite was in it and he was funny. mark ruffalo is sweet. today, i stayed in bed all day and read The Poisonwood Bible. i'm almost finished with it. it's really good, from my point of view. now, i will eat marinated tri-tip with pasta and zucchini. it's been a relaxing day.
Posted by carrie at 9/18/2005 05:10:00 PM
Saturday, September 17, 2005
Lord of War is a good movie. there are good actors, good performances, a very interesting story and it is a movie that sort of sneaks up behind you and steals away any trace of idealism you may have had left lingering in that sleepwalking brain of yours. that's what it did to me, anyway.
Posted by carrie at 9/17/2005 07:23:00 AM
Friday, September 16, 2005
last night in my dreamworld i was at my grammie's old house with my uncle frank and as we were leaving my grandpa (who is long dead) said thank you to me for something and then after we'd walked further away he was mean and sarcastic and wasn't really thankful about whatever it was. then all hell broke loose, literally. this weird little girl was trying to eat my soul and i hurried into my uncle's car. we drove a couple of blocks to this hospital where everyone was a zombie. i had to crawl out of there to escape while zombies tried to get me. all the non-zombies had to band together and if a moth-zombie got stuck to one person's back, it would be on everyone's back and we had to bite them off and kill them. we found this paint that made all the walls tranparent so we could see who was coming to get us and we ran and ran for our lives.
Posted by carrie at 9/16/2005 07:11:00 AM
Thursday, September 15, 2005
Posted by carrie at 9/15/2005 09:57:00 AM
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
i put my head down on my desk in my language and culture class and i really really fell asleep because i woke up at the end of class and i had all these sleep marks on my skin. i hope i wasn't snoring. so then i went to the library and laid down on a sofa and tried to go back to sleep and i totally could not sleep at all! that's so strange. it's like i can't sleep when i should be able to and i can sleep really well when i should not. i need to record my teacher's lectures so they can help me go to sleep at night.
Posted by carrie at 9/14/2005 04:15:00 PM
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
last night was the worst night's sleep i've had in months. the pillow i was using was more like some sort of sadistic torture device. i have to have a very soft pillow, or it really screws up my neck. this pillow was more like a huge brick. not really, but it was way too firm and lofty. also, the cat was taking a very noisy bath right in my ear for like two and a half hours and i must be allergic to the cat's saliva because i sneezed a bazillion times and could not breathe correctly. those are the mitigating factors. so, i'll probably have to take a five hour nap today. oh well.
Posted by carrie at 9/13/2005 08:20:00 AM
Monday, September 12, 2005
this is my last semester as an undergraduate and i'm sort of freaking out as far as wanting to make sure that i don't slack off and fail all my classes which i know will not really happen, but i am still panicking about it. i have four weeks until i have to do a 20-30 minute presentation on translation issues in the UN and also a 10 page paper on the current conversation about cultural anthropology. i feel myself wanting to freeze and feeling overwhelmed. i feel like i should not be allowed to do anything other than study with every spare, waking moment. so that's what i've been up to. i have pictures on my camera but complications are making it impossible for me to upload them at this time.
Posted by carrie at 9/12/2005 03:21:00 PM
Thursday, September 08, 2005
i think the best thing that an individual can do is to work on herself first. you can't help other people if you are incomplete or you need help yourself. you can't have peace on a global level if you have inner turmoil on the individual level. so inner work comes first. i don't claim to have any answers for anyone. i don't know that i have any kind of consistent answers for myself, even. i try to raise my consciousness by working in whatever ways i know how to improve my own mental and emotional condition. i think that is the best i can do for anyone, right now. as far as my being buddhist... i can't really claim to be buddhist except that it is my favorite philosophy. my practice is intermittent and unstable, just like pretty much the rest of my life. if i appear to lack compassion or common sense, even... please remember as i am working to remember to cast out the beam from thine own eye before you worry about the sliver in your neighbor's.
Posted by carrie at 9/08/2005 02:04:00 PM
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Posted by carrie at 9/07/2005 09:35:00 AM
Saturday, September 03, 2005
i was listening to npr and this guy paul jay was the guest. i didn't think i was going to find it interesting, but i really did. he is involved with independent world television and it sounds pretty cool. he talked about how the mainstream media directs the opinions of the mass audience but never spurs people to take action. a passive attitude is generally encouraged. he says we cannot afford to live a habitual life! we've got to wake up! you can't go back to normal life. also, have you read this? Empire Burlesque
Posted by carrie at 9/03/2005 01:35:00 PM
Friday, September 02, 2005
i might have to put a hit out on my Geog. of the Mediterranean teacher. he seriously just loves to hear himself babble incoherently about his travels in the region and never ever ever does he talk about anything that he has assigned for reading or anything that is academic in any way. he drives me completely and utterly insane and i despise him. no, i do not have compassion for his arrogance. i resent it horribly because i am a horribly fraudulent buddhist in every possible way. i honestly feel like he is one of the worst teachers i have ever had in my entire life. i have learned nothing nothing nothing nothing nothing about the geography of the mediterranean. i have been sitting in the handicapped chair because the normal desks KILL my back and i have scoliosis, so it is legitimate. well, during lectures, he pretty much stands with his back to me the entire time. it's like i don't even exist to him. i know that i should go and talk to him, but by the time class is over i resent his voice so much that i don't think i could tolerate another moment of talking with him after that. also, during some discussion about venice, he and other people in the class were making jokes about new orleans which i thought were in very bad taste. it is really not a funny situation there in new orleans. but the mainstream media would have us think that it's no big deal... what a facade! they are trying to discourage us from caring about the situation there and trying to blame it on the victims. i think my teacher works for the mainstream media.
Posted by carrie at 9/02/2005 01:59:00 PM