Friday, April 30, 2004


I have achieved a small personal victory! I've found a new place to live and now I get to move out of the horrible situation I've been in for the past four months! Hooray! I get to keep my cat, my room will be bigger, I will be in Arcata (free bus; close to where the action is!), plus my rent is cheaper! What more could a girl ask for? I am so glad that I took the steps which have led me to this result. It was really the only viable option in a hopeless situation. Three cheers for me!

Monday, April 26, 2004

The British of the 1940's

Lately, I've had a resurgence of interest in this topic. A few semesters ago, I took a class called Understanding World Culture, in which we looked at the British occupation of India. We watched the movie A Passage to India, which I liked very much. I'd seen the movie Ghandi before that. I recently finished watching the series The Jewel in the Crown and now, I'm watching The Flame Trees of Thika. Also, my friend Heather, picking up on this interest, sent me a copy of a book called West with the Night, which is very well-written and interesting.

Thursday, April 22, 2004


Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh?

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

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Friday, April 16, 2004

The Enneagram

INFP - "Questor". High capacity for caring. Emotional face to the world. High sense of honor derived from internal values. 4.4% of total population.
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Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||||| 56%
Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||| 47%
Type 3 Image Focus |||||||||||||| 57%
Type 4 Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||| 71%
Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||||||| 70%
Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||||| 52%
Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||| 41%
Type 8 Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||| 67%
Type 9 Calmness |||||||||||| 46%
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Wednesday, April 14, 2004

fortunate fool

"The fool doth think he is wise, but the wise man knows himself to be a fool." -- William Shakespeare "The wise man always throws himself on the side of his assailants. It is more his interest than it is theirs to find his weak point." -- Ralph Waldo Emerson "True wisdom comes to each of us when we realize how little we understand about life, ourselves, and the world around us." -- Socrates "The only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing." -- Socrates "Every man is a damn fool for at least five minutes every day; wisdom consists in not exceeding the limit." -- Elbert Hubbard

Monday, April 12, 2004

new dress

Today, I am wearing a dress which my mother bought for me almost a year ago. This is the first time I have actually worn it. I've received several compliments. I love flattery! ;-) It's fun to look nice. My Chinese teacher took a picture of me and she will email it to me soon, so I will post it when I get it. I was partially inspired to wear it due to a movie I watched with my friend Paul, The Jewel in the Crown. It's a lot like A Passage to India. I like the way the British dressed back then.

Friday, April 09, 2004

eeyore complex

At the moment, I am preparing myself to move out of my current living situation. I am scoping out the roommate scene on campus. There are tons of ads all over the bulletin boards for rooms in Arcata that are within my price range. I really never liked the apartment I'm in now, but it was a place to stay, at least. Now, I don't even like to be there for more than an hour a day. I've been calling people, but it's tough to contact anyone because no one is ever home and neither am I! Hopefully I can be somewhere new by June 1st. That would be a nice birthday present. (My 31st b-day is June 7th).

Wednesday, April 07, 2004

something nice

I got my copy of Wil Wheaton's book Dancing Barefoot, today. That's really cool, since I was in such a crummy mood today! I feel a little bit better. :-D

jaded melancholy

I don't know what to do or what to think anymore. I don't know what to write, either. Everything I think of bores me. I am as indecisive as the weather. I'm tired of myself. Having been at HSU for three months now, faces and places have become familiar to me. I wonder what it would be like to leave, now. What would it be like to go back to Modesto? I think that after this semester is over, I will go to Modesto for a few days or more. Hopefully then, I will miss Arcata and want to return with more of an appreciation for what I like about this place. I've become accustomed to seeing all of the various North Coast styles... the glass-beaded dreads, the eclectic clothing, all the organic food stores. I think that I could travel the world and still be left with this sensation of meaninglessness. Maybe if I focus more on trying to find a less toxic roommate situation, I will again find a feeling of novelty and interest in my daily life. As it is, I feel as though I have nowhere to lay my head and I am weary. I don't feel emotionally safe where I live, now. I am the only one who can take responsibility for changing that.

Tuesday, April 06, 2004

fixed archives

I just realized that my archives were not available. Now, they are. I'm sure that ALL my readers will be delighted to discover this new bit of info!!!!

Monday, April 05, 2004


I was just reminded of what today is. The 10-year anniversary of the death of Kurt Cobain. Look at this article.

more music

I've been scouring the used music sections for updates to my cd collection. This weekend I found The Sundays Static and Silence and a Cibbo Matto sampler.

Thursday, April 01, 2004

writer's block

Is human existence entirely without meaning? I am not a nihilist. I can't figure out what meaning there is to anything, but I feel there must be some meaning. Belief.... is it really just wishful thinking? Do we pin our hopes on phantom dreams? Is there a point to even asking such questions? It's all too confusing. If nothing else, we are here for someone's entertainment.... if not our own, then one another's. If there's not a "God," well... then, what? It's too crazy. I mean, what's the point of even writing anything at all if there is no meaning to anything?