Friday, April 30, 2004
I have achieved a small personal victory! I've found a new place to live and now I get to move out of the horrible situation I've been in for the past four months! Hooray! I get to keep my cat, my room will be bigger, I will be in Arcata (free bus; close to where the action is!), plus my rent is cheaper! What more could a girl ask for? I am so glad that I took the steps which have led me to this result. It was really the only viable option in a hopeless situation. Three cheers for me!
Posted by carrie at 4/30/2004 11:36:00 AM
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Monday, April 26, 2004
Lately, I've had a resurgence of interest in this topic. A few semesters ago, I took a class called Understanding World Culture, in which we looked at the British occupation of India. We watched the movie A Passage to India, which I liked very much. I'd seen the movie Ghandi before that. I recently finished watching the series The Jewel in the Crown and now, I'm watching The Flame Trees of Thika. Also, my friend Heather, picking up on this interest, sent me a copy of a book called West with the Night, which is very well-written and interesting.
Posted by carrie at 4/26/2004 02:38:00 PM
Thursday, April 22, 2004
Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh?
Posted by carrie at 4/22/2004 07:41:00 AM
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
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Friday, April 16, 2004
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Posted by carrie at 4/16/2004 11:22:00 AM
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
"The fool doth think he is wise, but the wise man knows himself to be a fool." -- William Shakespeare "The wise man always throws himself on the side of his assailants. It is more his interest than it is theirs to find his weak point." -- Ralph Waldo Emerson "True wisdom comes to each of us when we realize how little we understand about life, ourselves, and the world around us." -- Socrates "The only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing." -- Socrates "Every man is a damn fool for at least five minutes every day; wisdom consists in not exceeding the limit." -- Elbert Hubbard
Posted by carrie at 4/14/2004 08:31:00 AM
Monday, April 12, 2004
Today, I am wearing a dress which my mother bought for me almost a year ago. This is the first time I have actually worn it. I've received several compliments. I love flattery! ;-) It's fun to look nice. My Chinese teacher took a picture of me and she will email it to me soon, so I will post it when I get it. I was partially inspired to wear it due to a movie I watched with my friend Paul, The Jewel in the Crown. It's a lot like A Passage to India. I like the way the British dressed back then.
Posted by carrie at 4/12/2004 01:58:00 PM
Friday, April 09, 2004
At the moment, I am preparing myself to move out of my current living situation. I am scoping out the roommate scene on campus. There are tons of ads all over the bulletin boards for rooms in Arcata that are within my price range. I really never liked the apartment I'm in now, but it was a place to stay, at least. Now, I don't even like to be there for more than an hour a day. I've been calling people, but it's tough to contact anyone because no one is ever home and neither am I! Hopefully I can be somewhere new by June 1st. That would be a nice birthday present. (My 31st b-day is June 7th).
Posted by carrie at 4/09/2004 02:07:00 PM
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
I don't know what to do or what to think anymore. I don't know what to write, either. Everything I think of bores me. I am as indecisive as the weather. I'm tired of myself. Having been at HSU for three months now, faces and places have become familiar to me. I wonder what it would be like to leave, now. What would it be like to go back to Modesto? I think that after this semester is over, I will go to Modesto for a few days or more. Hopefully then, I will miss Arcata and want to return with more of an appreciation for what I like about this place. I've become accustomed to seeing all of the various North Coast styles... the glass-beaded dreads, the eclectic clothing, all the organic food stores. I think that I could travel the world and still be left with this sensation of meaninglessness. Maybe if I focus more on trying to find a less toxic roommate situation, I will again find a feeling of novelty and interest in my daily life. As it is, I feel as though I have nowhere to lay my head and I am weary. I don't feel emotionally safe where I live, now. I am the only one who can take responsibility for changing that.
Posted by carrie at 4/07/2004 11:57:00 AM
Tuesday, April 06, 2004
Monday, April 05, 2004
Thursday, April 01, 2004
Is human existence entirely without meaning? I am not a nihilist. I can't figure out what meaning there is to anything, but I feel there must be some meaning. Belief.... is it really just wishful thinking? Do we pin our hopes on phantom dreams? Is there a point to even asking such questions? It's all too confusing. If nothing else, we are here for someone's entertainment.... if not our own, then one another's. If there's not a "God," well... then, what? It's too crazy. I mean, what's the point of even writing anything at all if there is no meaning to anything?
Posted by carrie at 4/01/2004 12:39:00 PM