Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Posted by carrie at 8/31/2005 11:44:00 AM
Monday, August 29, 2005
you know what kind of bugs me? when teachers waste classtime. my geography teacher has, in my opinion, completely wasted the last three class sessions. i think it is incredibly rude. when teachers talk off-topic, go off on tangential stories about their own lives (are we going to be tested on this?) i mean, i'm all for learning about the teacher's life and his opinions on random topics, but you know-- i have other things i could be doing. it would be nice if they would write on the syllabus "you don't really have to come to class today, nothing relevant to the course will be discussed"
Posted by carrie at 8/29/2005 03:31:00 PM
Sunday, August 28, 2005
Posted by carrie at 8/28/2005 10:59:00 AM
Friday, August 26, 2005
Thursday, August 25, 2005
would you trust them if they did? wouldn't you start to wonder what they had up their sleeve if nobody ever said anything critical about you ever? if you think that you're better than everyone else, then what do you care what they think about you, anyway? do you want a bunch of people for whom you have little respect to approve of you? why? approval and disapproval are only temporary conditions and constantly leave you chasing after more. why not just let go?
"Grasping at things can only yield one of two results: Either the thing you are grasping at disappears, or you yourself disappear. It is only a matter of which occurs first." Goenka
Posted by carrie at 8/25/2005 10:49:00 AM
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
how to become a webcam girl an excerpt from the anti-webcam girl coalition:
Writing talent? Content? An actual purpose to the site?! Who needs those!? Once you say that you’re a woman, every word that you type will immediately have some type of relevance to the future of humanity as a whole. However, the image that you want to portray is what will have an effect on your Internet well being. For this, you have one of these choices: ... bare your breasts at the drop of a hat, [write] poetry that makes no sense, BATHE YOURSELF IN LOTS OF LIGHT! ... degrade yourself when given the opportunity for more hits or popularity....
Posted by carrie at 8/24/2005 02:19:00 AM
Monday, August 22, 2005
today, at the end of my Living Myths class, the teacher read us the story The Geranium On The Windowsill Just Died But Teacher You Went Right On and it really got to me. it's taken me about an hour to stop mourning the lost childhoods of the world. and something of my own... yes, i am emo
Posted by carrie at 8/22/2005 07:01:00 PM
I don't know where I'm gonna live Don't know if I'll find a place I'd have to think about it some And that I do not wish to face I guess I'm counting on his Divine Intervention I cannot understand my God I don't know why it gets to me One day my life is filled with joy And then we find we disagree All depending on his Divine Intervention Does he love us does he love us? Does he love us does he love us? I look around and all I see is destruction We're all Counting on his Divine Intervention When he comes the sun shine When he comes the sun shine Sunshine, the sunshine Here it comes...
Posted by carrie at 8/22/2005 07:34:00 AM
Sunday, August 21, 2005
i'm sorry if you don't care about vince vaughn and every movie he's been in. i'm still going to talk about it because i care. anyway, the last five i watched were Clay Pigeons, A Cool Dry Place, Swingers, Made and Dodgeball (which I'd seen before, but it is funny!) truly, my favorite so far is still Wedding Crashers. i enjoyed Clay Pigeons. even though it was kind of unrealistic-- i like Joaquin Phoenix and Jeanine Garofalo. A Cool Dry Place was kind of like a movie of the week, but it had some truth to it. Made got bad reviews, but it didn't royally suck. Vince's character was really an idiot, though. Swingers was torture until the end and it redeemed itself. all in all i don't regret seeing any of these movies and today i'm going back to the video store for more! i'm addicted. too bad i'm not getting paid for this. i guess the entertainment is payment enough.
Posted by carrie at 8/21/2005 07:29:00 AM
Saturday, August 20, 2005
one time on my birthday when i was like eleven or something, my mom took me to an ice cream parlor and said i could have whatever i wanted. i really wanted a banana split, but i was a strange kid. i felt like i didn't deserve to have a banana split and that it would be too greedy to pick that, so i just had a cone with one scoop of chocolate ice cream. i felt sad later, that i hadn't picked what i really wanted. i also never liked asking my mom for money and i always felt guilty when she bought me school clothes. to this day it is difficult for me to ask for what i want.
Posted by carrie at 8/20/2005 01:39:00 PM
Friday, August 19, 2005
1. i don't have links to all the coolest blogs. 2. i don't post naked pics of myself. 3. i don't use lots of swear-words in my posts. 4. i don't go to bars. 5. i don't have lots of cool friends that i take random pics of to post on my blog. 6. i don't blog about sex. 7. i don't post links to pics of naked people. 8. i try to avoid typing at length about my psychological problems. 9. i don't use a ton of slang. 10. i try to spell correctly and use proper grammar as much as possible.
Posted by carrie at 8/19/2005 10:51:00 AM
Thursday, August 18, 2005
riding the bus pretty much guarantees an encounter with overtly insane people. if anyone is looking for the insane people of the world-- take a trip on the city bus and you will see them in all their glory. drunk people are in abundance as well, but i guess it's good that they're not driving. same with the insane people. i'm pretty much used to it, but it is sometimes too much to deal with. i have enough problems of my own without having to listen to and smell these wierdos. sometimes it helps me feel a little more sane, though, being surrounded with the likes of them.
Posted by carrie at 8/18/2005 11:23:00 AM
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
i just finished watching The Cell. it was very interesting. i enjoyed it very much. yesterday, i watched Domestic Disturbance. that was okay. i got mad at the mother for being such a selfish beyotch. the day before, i watched the remake of Psycho. it was pretty hokey. i don't see what people see in Anne Heche. it was cool to see Vince in all these different types of movies.
Posted by carrie at 8/17/2005 02:58:00 PM
technorati tag/category: food
Posted by carrie at 8/17/2005 08:18:00 AM
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
so i got my hair cut today because it was getting kinda scraggily. i didn't want length removed, but i wanted it to have a little more movement. nobody ever seems to know how to cut my hair because i go to cheap people who've never cut my hair before-- and my hair is very coarse and very thick. this picture doesn't really show it very well, but all the other pictures were less attractive, so i chose this one. i think i always look lame in most of my pictures. i see them and i think-- what the? that's not me! anyway, i'm pretty sure i have a place lined up. tomorrow, i will know for sure. the parties involved are going to sleep on it and we'll decide tomorrow.
Posted by carrie at 8/16/2005 06:09:00 PM
Monday, August 15, 2005
tomorrow i have my day cut out for me. i'm gonna be running around from 9-3. i've been getting a lot of exercise riding my bike everywhere. another person said no i can't be their roommate. i've decided this is because there's something more perfect out there for me.
Posted by carrie at 8/15/2005 06:57:00 PM
Sunday, August 14, 2005
one of the best things about v.v.'s performance in Return to Paradise (that's what i'm calling vince, now) is the part where his character is struggling with whether or not to be true to himself and who is that self, anyway? something about the development of his character during this process seems almost shakespearean, to me. but i did read some critical reviews of his performance-- such reliable sources as the back of the video box compare him with a young, funny Brando. some even say he is like the proverbial spawn of elvis and ann margaret, i think i read somewhere. i'm obviously biased, here. i hear vince has put on a few pounds... he'll have to get a trainer.
Posted by carrie at 8/14/2005 08:09:00 PM
i have begun my own personal Vince Vaughn movie fest. i rented four of his movies that i've not yet seen and the first one i've watched is Return to Paradise. of course, it was easy for me to watch it because Vince Vaughn is basically the star and it was a movie that was both dramatic and romantic. either Vince had no body hair back in 1998 or they removed it all for that film. i guess it's because they were supposed to be young guys. it wasn't the best movie i've ever seen, but i got to watch Vince Vaughn play an interesting character who was grappling with a difficult choice. and i cried at the end-- so i got rid of some cortisol.
Posted by carrie at 8/14/2005 07:39:00 PM
i had this dream where there were these little birds who used crab apples as their chest. they would pick it up with their chest and make this suction around it and then it made them look like robin redbreasts. also, they and their fellow birds would nibble on said apples. once the apple they were donning became all chewed up, they'd switch it for another. very strange!
Posted by carrie at 8/14/2005 08:11:00 AM
Saturday, August 13, 2005
Friday, August 12, 2005
today i went to see what textbooks i need for my classes this semester: Geography of the Mediterranean one book we'll be reading is The Godfather Language & Culture Living Myths Anthropological Theory One of the prospective roommates chose someone else. you never know why. maybe she found a hot guy or something. who knows. her house was rather pristine, in any case. i would have felt like i was messing it up just by moving in.
Posted by carrie at 8/12/2005 02:50:00 PM
Thursday, August 11, 2005
hollywood chews up young women and spits them out old. being a vegetarian does not make a person healthier or better or holier than anyone else. today, i ran around looking at prospective rooms to rent. it wore me out. two of the places will be deciding this weekend and letting me know by monday!
Posted by carrie at 8/11/2005 07:06:00 PM
sometimes i just don't understand what the point is of everyone and their mother linking to certain very popular blogs that everyone and their mother already links to so what is the point of another blog linking to them? is it so everyone who comes to your blog will know that you are one of their groupies? is it like name-dropping? i try to link only to blogs that most people don't already link to. is it so that blog will then perhaps link back to you? but then they are only linking to you because you linked to them. it confuzles me.
Posted by carrie at 8/11/2005 12:53:00 PM
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Posted by carrie at 8/10/2005 04:36:00 PM
he is so cute! i feel so immature that i have suddenly developed this ridiculous crush on vince vaughn. what is up with that? i think he looks best right now. when he was younger he was too pretty. i look forward to seeing him in some better movies soon. not so many of the silly movies. he should be a leading man in a romantic comedy. yeah baby! maybe even just a good drama. i apologize for being all fangirl. i know it's lame.
Posted by carrie at 8/10/2005 08:35:00 AM
yesterday, i went to the zen group and i was the only new person there. they asked me what i thought. i said i thought it was easy compared to some groups with which i have sat. i said it seemed short. it was 20 minutes sitting then 10 minutes walking and 15 minutes sitting again. like mini-zen. then they asked me if i would prefer longer sits? i said i didn't know if i would prefer them, but that the last place was longer (two hours instead of 45 minutes) and they did prostrations and chanting. what i really meant was that i was glad it wasn't very hard because sometimes i don't go back when it's harder. anyway, i'm afraid i came off as arrogant. but, i did mention that maybe i wasn't concentrating hard enough. i managed to keep track of counting my breaths, but still my mind was secretly ruminating about the normal stuff that i obsess about all the time. it reminds me of when i was in first grade and during naptime this boy Jason and I were feeling eachother up and we got in trouble and were sent to the office. the principal wasn't there so the secretary swatted us with this big wooden paddle that had holes in it. she was really nice and it didn't hurt and i said so. she asked me if i'd like another. i said, no.
Posted by carrie at 8/10/2005 06:49:00 AM
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
Sunday, August 07, 2005
i just finished watching Stage Beauty with Claire Danes and Billy Crudup. i loved it so much. it got to me the way good theatre gets to me. i cried throughout most of the movie. not out of sadness-- just out of the intensity of all of the emotions. earlier, we went to see Wedding Crashers. it was much funnier than i'd expected and i liked it. it was fun. when we were leaving the theatre, this older woman remarked to her husband that there was too much juvenile humor for her taste. true, the humor was juvenile; but, it was still funny.
Posted by carrie at 8/07/2005 06:18:00 PM
for a vast portion of my life, i have had a sublimated desire to work in animation. today, i was watching the commentaries on Ren & Stimpy Season 3 and 1/2-ish. it was interesting, because i did not find most of the episodes amusing. and then, when i watched the commentaries, i found out why that was. the earlier seasons were produced by a different company or something.... so they were different. funnier. the writers were complaining about how those last few episodes were not right.
Posted by carrie at 8/07/2005 08:13:00 AM
Saturday, August 06, 2005
Friday, August 05, 2005
Normally I'd not do a meme, but I like this one. Except I am not going to tag anyone. If you want to do the meme then that's cool.
Posted by carrie at 8/05/2005 03:27:00 PM
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Thursday, August 04, 2005
Posted by carrie at 8/04/2005 09:01:00 AM
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
man, when mercury goes retrograde it really goes retrograde on my ass. sorry, i was just channeling the stand-up comic in my personality complex.
Posted by carrie at 8/03/2005 03:56:00 AM
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
i have been in unbelievably huge amounts of pain for at least 32 hours now. sometimes it subsides for about 15-20 minutes... just long enough for me to think the pain is going away-- but then it begins to ascend again. i have an infection in my jaw, basically. the doctor gave me some safe antibiotics.
Posted by carrie at 8/02/2005 02:44:00 PM
Monday, August 01, 2005
last night i had dreams about paintings. some of them were mine. some were not. my grandma and i ate pot roast while watching Dolores Claiborne. we had vanilla bean ice cream for dessert.
Posted by carrie at 8/01/2005 06:44:00 AM