chopping broccoli

here is the beautiful broccoli it's good for you

let's get to the point

we watch a lot of baby shows on discovery health and the learning channel. shows that show babies being born and the first couple of days and weeks at home. it always reminds me that i have a whole baby living inside of me. it's weird when i think about it. she could be outside, but she's inside.

blog diggity dog

i am a huge dork. it is totally official, now. there is no escaping my complete dorkiness. when i was a teenager, my mom was the same age that i am now, and i used to be embarrassed by what a dork she was; but, now i have become her. i don't know, but i do know this: i don't get out much at all, anymore. i mean, before, i was at least a college student, so i had some social interaction. now, however, i am a shut-in and have next to no social interaction whatsoever. i went with scott to the bank and i was like a kid in a candy store. i realized that i was acting so lame. i hadn't brushed my hair, my face was all puffy from sleep and i started organizing the teller's brochures (a habit leftover from my former career in banking). i act totally strange when i am in a bank, because i feel really comfortable in banks and i feel like i work there, but the people who work there don't know me from adam and probably just think i am a whack-job. also, i blurt out whatever partly-formed thoughts happen to be in my head at the moment without having even thought it through to see if it makes any sense or is socially appropriate. it makes me feel like a child. then we stopped at the grocery outlet and i was like, ooh look at this. look at that. look at this. to every little thing. i had to get these pompoms to make my arts and crafts. hahahahah i am so un-avant garde that i am avant-garde now i will make broccoli out of felt.

in small doses

today, i had to have a glucose test to determine whether or not i have gestational diabetes (just as a precaution). i had to fast from midnight last night until 1:30 this afternoon. that's because i didn't wake up until 10 AM, so i got to the hospital at 10:30. they drew my blood, made me wait twenty minutes and then i had to drink this extremely sugary orange soda stuff, wait an hour, give blood again, wait another hour and give blood one last time. then i ate a peanut butter sandwich, pop tarts, a chicken sandwich and some popcorn chicken. i was starving. then i took a nap for two hours. i don't know the results yet. while sitting in the waiting room, i played tetris on my laptop and felt really sleepy and the workers at the lab were way too cheerful.

i'll settle for a cup of coffee

this, too, would be a good thing to leave around a coffee shop and people would want them.

something to do

this is fun! you can play pong for free. i've only played twice. my highest score was 697.

down by the old mill stream

SIGH

my life seems SOOOOOO monotonous lately.

geisha

the back of the neck is left unpainted in this three-pointed style. it is considered highly sensual to have this area of the skin exposed. today i made enchiladas with chicken, basmati rice, black beans and cheese as the filling. they were good. i only ate one and then for dessert i had a peanut butter and jelly sandwich dipped in chocolate milk, for old-times' sake.

here is the donut

i tried to make a face for it, but didn't like any of the ideas for a face that i came up with.

is it important?

i'm reading memoirs of a geisha. it's interesting. it doesn't really seem like fiction. there are a lot of details describing sensory information. suddenly pictures of geisha are fascinating to me.

sweethearts

kind of pathetic, probably

last night my dreams were strange, which is not unusual. i remember trying to compose a poem. a person has to be in a certain state of mind.... perhaps a more receptive state... in order to allow poetry to come to the surface. in me, i guess it is usually subsumed. here is a funny thing that says something about something: the other day, scott said, "do you want to go to the beach after we eat lunch?" we were already out and i realized i didn't have my camera with me. i said, "i want to, but i don't have my camera." why bother doing anything good if i can't document it. i have begun to live in that removed place where i view things through blogging, ultimately. will i blog about it? if i go to the beach without my camera, did it really happen?

my thoughts exactly

"Thinking is easy, acting is difficult, and to put one's thoughts into action is the most difficult thing in the world." --Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

sick!

i want to find a big whale loogi (lugi?) how do you spell loogy? worth $300,000! read this awesome story.

you get what you need

here is what i ate for lunchhere is what i wanted to eat for lunch: i went to the doctor today and i weigh 190 lbs! i started crying. part of it is because i ate a few very salty dill pickles yesterday and am therefor retaining water.... part of it is because i am pregnant and part of it is because i've been comforting myself with ice cream and brownies quite regularly. i enjoyed my healthy lunch very much. it's just sometimes more fun to eat naughty stuff.

here is the monster

fear of buttons

i find it fascinating that so many people have a phobia of buttons!

mustard

i finished this penguin just now. lately, i have been interested in food but i don't eat as much because most things give me heartburn and indigestion, which sucks royally. i recently read that if you eat a spoonful of mustard, it would help with that. i don't know. i haven't exactly tried that. i don't think i've really had much in the way of hot dogs during my pregnancy, but for lunch today i ate three hot dogs on buns with mustard. yum! and so far, no heartburn. right now, i'm watching Oprah and it's about terrorism but i might change the channel because i'm not sure if i really want to know all this stuff.

awesome

cat abuse, i tell ya! i stumbled onto this site from whatsername's blog. i should send them the picture of my cat with the mustache! poor kitty.

sad and funny but true

here is a funny blogpost about blogging. which makes me also feel like linking to this post about blog addiction.

cupcake

cupcake was ahead in the polls when i started making my next thing. so after this will be a penguin. this is fun.

hay

our coffee table is a decent piece of furniture, but it needs to be refinished. i just got the idea to decoupage it. this would be cool, cuz i have that very deck of tarot cards that i basically never cared much about. the only thing is that some people might come to my house and think i'm a witch or a cult person or something freaky like that. or i could do it with something else. i'd have to make scott do the lacquer part cuz of the fumes.

copycat

hot potato

i was trying to make a baked potato using the microwave's "baked potato sensor" setting, but for some reason the potato caught on fire! i'd poked holes in it and everything! now the whole house smells smokey. i'm watching the movie pumpkin with christina ricci and it's awesome. i totally like it. it's about how being politically correct can be taken to extremes and limit peoples lives with shackling stereotypes. maybe it's not completely awesome, but i still like it. my sister sent me a TON of baby clothes and stuff. it was really fun to get that in the mail.

xo

the cat is going helter skelter because it's raining and she wants to go outside. i guess i should just let her out. that'd teach her. so here is my first valentines heart made of felt. i need to learn how to embroider.

dinosaur prototype 2

this one has a few things about it that i dislike. the black stitching (i'd run out of colored thread, the legs are too big and fat, the head is tilted too far up). the next one will be even better!

boxing is so brutal

we watched cinderella man. i enjoyed it. it was interesting to consider what it may have been like to live during the depression era.

true facts

when i was little, i liked avocado sandwiches until one time i got some bad avocado and it made me sick. after that i hated even to see an avocado for years. now i love them again. one time, i ate 12-15 Andes after dinner mints and got sick. i have pretty much never had a taste for chocolate mint since then. i have kind of a phobia about jumping into water. i don't really like swimming much, either. it just seems like more trouble than it's worth. i have enjoyed swimming at times, especially in a nice river in the mountains, but really i avoid swimming in general. when i was a kid, if i asked my mom "can i have a pickle/spoon of peanut butter/ piece of cheese" and her answer would be "i don't care" i would feel like she literally didn't care about me. the first time i saw puff the magic dragon, i cried and cried and wouldn't go to sleep that night cuz i was so sad.

want a cookie?

yep. i am a dork.

why

why is it that critics seem to love the most mind-numbing movies the best? we rented the constant gardener. i never wanted to see it in the theater because i thought it sounded boring even though all the critics were praising it. then, when it won a golden globe i thought maybe i should check it out. the critics can rave all they want about the performances. the movie literally put me to sleep. it was difficult for me to pay attention to or care about, honestly. i started to understand what was going on and there were a few good scenes; but mostly i didn't really care. it's not that i would never care about the topic or issue it addresses, it's just that the movie bored me. it was confusing and diffuse. this was a technique that maybe was supposed to get the viewer to feel like it was a mystery, i guess. it is like a movie that some teacher would have you watch in a college course about politics. it's just not what i look for in entertainment. too educational or something. maybe i'm just not very intellectual.

thanatopsis

i think the poem thanatopsis is beautiful. in high school i tried to memorize it. i memorized a lot of it.... but, it is just wonderful to me.

too bad

too bad these are $150.

lucky day

today was a lucky day. watching two for the money. it's very macho. so far i'm just getting the feeling that i would not want to mess with al pacino. he's scary, but awesome. i very briefly stopped into the thrift store and got some embroidery thread and needles. the thrift store is like michael's but way cheaper. yes, i'm supposed to be taking it easy... but there has been some debate over strict bedrest and i am inclined to believe that i can sense my limits. but we rented six movies and it's been raining all day so we're just gonna veg out on the couch for the rest of the day. also, i got some chocolate haagen-dazs cuz i've been craving chocolate ice cream for days.

they are bumbling idiots

i just think bumbling idiots is fun to say and conjures up an amusing image. pervy is a new cool word, too. everyone is pervy. one of my graduation gifts was a subscription to the New Yorker magazine. coolio.

roller coaster ride

hi. how are you? i am fine. i don't like it when the cat licks himself. it is so noisy. i have already mentioned this. so today when he came and sat on the bed to lick himself i shooed him away. he came back about five minutes later wanting to do it some more. he doesn't take a hint very well, apparently. i shooed him away again. he still doesn't get the message. he just sees me as a minor annoyance and then goes on about his business clueless as to what my problem is. finally, he ended up going underneath the bed. poor dumb kitty.

that's lovely

this morning i asked scott, "how do you feel?" and he said, "i felt fine until i saw you" isn't that nice?

it's really funny

if aliens landed on earth right in the middle of a football playoff and that was their first glimpse of human behavior i wonder what they would think. when i do watch football at all, i am totally detached from it and i just think it is hilarious the way they get all intense over whether or not someone flinched and the ref said there was no contact and the coaches are flipping out and everyone has these intense looks on their faces.

prototype

this is a monster/dinosaur that i made by pretty much guessing at the proportions for the pattern, so it is a prototype. i plan to make another one with different dimensions. he's still cute, tho. i ran out of red thread and so some of his stitching is white. last night, part of my dream involved some alien from a ufo (but it looked nothing like the stereotypical alien) came down from its spaceship and gave me a message to call it/him. i ran to find a pen but could not remember the whole phone number. it seemed like part of the phone number was the letters of my dad's first name. whatever. i am fascinated by dreams.

fishy wish

Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self. - Cyril Connolly

i absolutely despise the sound of cats licking themselves. it drives me inSANE! and it's like ALL they ever DO! plus they beg for food all the time because they are SPOILED rotten. next time i want a basset hound.