where is my motivation?

We have to look at our own inertia, insecurities, self-hate, fear that, in truth, we have nothing valuable to say. When your writing blooms out of the back of this garbage compost, it is very stable. You are not running from anything. You can have a sense of artistic security. If you are not afraid of the voices inside you, you will not fear the critics outside you. --Natalie Goldberg

today, i had some sort of panic attack, i guess. it just seemed like everything was a matter of life and death and nobody knew it except for me. everyone else was just totally nonchalant about it and i'm like, "don't you realize how important this is???" sometimes i freak out.