i am a beaming ray of light

right now i am dead tired but i haven't had any time to myself in a really long time. i need to go to sleep but i feel like i have to blog first. i have to get that out of my system. that sounds like some sort of purging thing. maybe that is what it is. i really do need rest. last night, my dreams were wild. one of the things that i dreamed seemed to be telling me that i should just accept that i am a nerd/dork/geek and get over trying to be cool. it makes me even more dorky that i ever try to be cool at all.