drive-by shooting?

nvm

here is a brilliant video where i flash my bra (unintentional, i swear. i wasn't trying to be sexy and i honestly don't think it looks sexy, actually) the main point is the talking.
here ya go.

anything at all

when we were watching crank, i asked scott to pause it for a sec and right when he paused it this is the screen we had. haha. nice crotch shot amy smart. anyway, i thought that was funny. and SO DO YOU! so LAUGH. i liked dwight yoakam in that movie.

red in tooth and claw

today we saw lizards mating in the wild. it was rough. the boy lizard was not nice to the girl lizard. no foreplay or anything. he just JUMPS on her and bites her neck and she is like DYING and does he even care about her pleasure, enjoyment or even desire? i GUESS you could call that mating. today we had lunch at el pollo loco. i had tortilla soup. it was really good! we also went to trader joes which was awesome, too.

that's not a word

this is a very stupid video made with a very broken camera so it's just bad. but if you really want to hear me speak, then watch it.

Yesterday I mowed the front lawn. albeit, I did a pretty shoddy job of it, but still I made the effort even after getting really mad because it was hard to get the lawnmower out of the shed I had to turn it on its side and lift it up awkwardly because the opening it had to fit thru was not wide enough! argh! but I moved past that and then I had to deal with the handle of the lawnmower vibrating so vigorously that my hands were purple, swollen and itchy for like ten minutes after I was finished mowing. This morning, I was out in the front yard looking at a tree frog and some guy who was trying to visit someone across the street asks me if I have a pen or pencil he can use. I was polite and stopped what I was doing and kindly retrieved him a pen even tho I thought his behavior was highly irregular. He told me his life story and asked me about mine. His mom is from Arkansas. see? it was cool but I felt that feeling of obligation... it was like he didn't know any better than to just be so familiar with me. haha those are the kind of people I attract. Don't even pay attention to me. I am just spouting B.S. I am going to ride my bike now.

yes no

night at the museum is a total kids movie. i'd say it pretty much makes no sense to watch it unless you either are a kid or have a kid with you because that is the only way it would be fun. i suppose there are probably other ways.. like if you played a drinking game where everyone has to drink everytime someone in the movie says "yeah no" or "no no no yeah"

i guess our neighbors are having a drink-all-day marathon. they are just standing around outside talking drinking and smoking. part of me wants to go out there and join them; but, that will not be the choice i make today (or anytime soon). i am curious about them tho because they are all a bunch of drunks complete and total. always entertaining to spy upon. they are funny in a way that is pretty messed up if you think too much about it, but what can ya do? alcohol IS poison ('cept moderate wine) and when i drink three or four glasses (which is too much for one day) i feel the negative effects on my body.

sometimes i think it's a sin

hi

i am accustomed to living in a controlled environment.

i live in a gingerbread house.

in my soul.

a hermit

in the woods

an artist

even when i made a list of what i would want if i could have anything/if i won lotto

i wanted to live in the mountains by a large body of water, maybe ocean, a humble abode with adequate transportation

and then just be free

to live

grow

sustain

breathe

create

ओउम

so in a very real sense, i already have what i want

as far as that goes

read the above sign a little more closely. haha under that slide is where the memorial is to the boy who committed suicide a month or two ago. all those little boys were talking about it and i was eavesdropping. they were saying that he didn't really kill himself because somebody else did it. etcetera...

ओउम also those slides are really static-y and shock everyone

yesterday morning there was a parade, mostly it was just a fire engine blowing its siren and a bunch of trucks full of kids and covered with balloons. they also threw candy which people went out and collected off the street. i don't think it was meant to be in recognition of cinco de mayo, though. there was no indication of that.

i've got a 'Free Bird' 4 yas right here

one ov my favez. nirvana about a girl npluggd

you know what.... i have always been a big dork when it came to music. always WAY behind the times. i'm like totally in love with Oh Comely by Neutral Milk Hotel. Had never listened to them in any way before this week. that album has been out for like NINE YEARS!?!?!? man i am a dork. i have seen the album cover before, tho.

i wish my name were "Arden"

i'm watching a rerun of SNL which features performances by MAROON 5! sexy@! SEW6Y. adam reminds me of this one dude i used to work with named adam. not just cuz his name was either cuz i knew a diff dude named adam and he doesn't remind me of that dude.

i'm peeved cuz i wrote an awesome post earlier and it disappppppeared.

DO YOU PEOPLE EVEN KNOW WHAT CINCO DE MAYO IS ABOUT???????????????????

have some respect ese.

cinco de mayo

A while back, I got some discarded books from the local library and one of them was a book called Yoga for Women. I just started reading it yesterday. It was written in 1963. It talks about how once a woman reaches her mid-30's, she frequently gives up on her appearance and taking care of herself and begins to wear a hardened, 'harrassed' expression, all of which prematurely age her. while that may very well be true, i still found it amusing. UH OH! I've only got one year left of VITALITY unless I do something quick.

I guess it is true.

They say women lose their looks as they age more readily than men. Personally, I find younger men WAY LESS sexy than older men.

deep purple

have we all already discussed that it is much more fun to clean someone else's house than it is your own? well, that is how i have always felt about it. today has been spent in cleaning because my mom and my grandma are coming to my house and so... you know... it's gotta be Spic-N-Span. Not that it wasn't before, but i wanted to do a touch up here and there. ;-) it has been fun. reminds me of a time when (it was after my dad died) I basically spent a year just cleaning and clearing clutter and cleaning and organizing, etc. you would be surprised how long that can keep you occuppied.

give or take

are you ready for cinco de mayo? we are having a big celebration with out-of-town guests and everything! i am rethreading my bead necklace which broke the first day i had it. it will go perfectly with what i am wearing right now which i think looks good, but i never really know until i take a picture. or 10,364

everything is getting on my nerves

we went shopping today. sophie (our daughter) now has two goldfish and a ghost shrimp. the ghost shrimp are funny. maybe i will eat it. just kidding.

some crazy guy was sitting on a bench outside of the store and we came out with our grocery cart and he saw that we were buying toilet paper and paper towels and he says, "you sure you got enough toilet paper and paper towels?" i sorta smiled in his direction but scott just ignored him. the dude continued to talk to himself.

ॐ मणि पद्म हम

from brooklynvegan

is it sustainable?

i don't think i've taken a single picture today. THAT is a freakin miracle. we've had a couple of days of srping and then here it is cold again. in May. i made pasta e fagioli today.

it was good.

it's been a long time since we went to the movies.

we don't get to go out much...

which is pretty much as it should be.

we would have to go to Reno or Chico pretty much to do anything good.

we live smackdab in between those two towns.

there's Lassen Volcanic Park, which is pretty cool.

it's about a 45 min drive?

they have mudpots and steam vents

also, i want to go see the Ishi site.

taht's near here.

absentminded

i <3 rye bread & rye crackers i have never eaten dandelion greens, have you? i would want to be sure they were grown without any chance of contaminants. i am going to have a salad today. i hear someone talking outside. the wind is carrying his voice so even though he is out on the road in front of the neighbor's house it sounds like he is right by our window. i guess it is annoying me.

what do you think this is?

i've been going to the park for a few days and yesterday there was something new.

the flowers and candles etc that have been placed at the site of the boy's death were all straightened up

and there was great big chalk writing all over the bathroom building, the tennis courts and the blacktop that the boy's mother had written.

it made me cry and feel really gross and a lot of mixed feelings really.

she wrote tons of stuff and i couldn't take pics of it except for just this one.

i feel like i can't be too intrusive like completely taking pics of everything she wrote and telling all the details.

NO. i can't do that because it is not respectful.

this is not just some 'event' it is complicated and real stuff.

things are always very complicated, you see.

or should i just say complex. because you/we whatever always think we know exactly what we know... but we really don't know shit. people get all these opinions and they set up 'realities' in their minds but few people realize that it is all IMAGINARY.

meanwhile...

ugh omg (!) all these sirens are going on outside fire trucks ambulance i know something is going on in this town and it must be kinda big, cuz normally nothing goes on. a fire? what? i MUST know this instant. but it is too cold and stormy outside and i am not going to put forth the effort required to go outside and find out what is going on so now i am all angsty wondering what could it BE? i bet a lot of other bored people in this teeny tiny town are actually biking, walking, driving around trying to find out what's up. people are outside, on the fone, driving by, etc. scott thinks i am hilarious. he is not like me. he isn't very nosey about other people. i am a looky-loo. always on my tiptoes peeking over under and around curtains to see what people are doing. i'm just very curious. nosey. i cannot STAND it if people are outside making noise, gathering, doing something... i just HAVE too see what it is. i don't need to know, obviously, but i think it is better to be aware of your surroundings and actually, sometimes i am hypervigilant about that but other times i'm tres oblivious about things other ppl would find obvs.

he's not wearing anything!

OH YEAH. another Gemini trait which I demonstrate is: playing Devil's Advocate simply because Gemini cannot tolerate people who hold their opinions as proven fact, refusing to reconsider their cemented belief system. IT'S ANNOYING.

also, Gemini (ruled by Mercury) are big on open communication and would prefer to lose social standing rather than play The Emperor's New FLIPPIN' Clothes; i.e., we are not lemmings.

ॐ

i am talking to myself

My astrological Sun Sign is Gemini.

I have done my whole chart a couple of times

and read multiple interpretations.

Especially interesting to me are descriptions of my problem areas.

One of the things I recently read about Gemini is that they are

natural imitators/copycats. Very changeable.

Know something about and/or are interested in almost everything.