i can't tell you

when i was AT the store yesterday, i was IN the toiletpaper aisle and i KNEW that we needed toilet paper but i didn't buy any. i postponed that purchase. now WHAT could my motivation be, there? because it at first makes no sense to me but i know that i procrastinate things like that... like there just has to be a certain amount of things that i have put off 'til later or left on the backburner. i can't be TOO responsible. i have to have things tugging at me that i know i need to do but am not doing.
it's a selfdefeating behavior. like hamlet. i have that underachiever chip on my shoulder thing going on for 'no good reason' rebel without a cause stubborn contrary argumentative.

or would you rather hear about how perfect i am?

so now i have to buy t.p. today. because we are on our last roll.

do you take it personally if you want the window open and someone else wants it closed? i tend to.