i need this

anxiety is no fun. cuz i think i have ptsd.

i wanted to take the baby to the ocean today. things are often different than i expect they'll be. it seems like we only spent like two minutes at the jetty. we were standing near the edge and a wave came up and splashed us and i sorta screamed and probably scared sophie. and our pants got all wet. so then we went home and all of that took like an hour. so it was like a big trip and a little trip depending on how you look at it.
i want to eat ice cream and that really is a bad thing to do but so tempting.