just relax

i am very impatient.
it's funny because some people have told me that i seem very calm but that is the farthest thing from how i feel. furthest. either way.
the smallest inconvenience can feel like the end of the world to me.
i wanted to listen to that r.e.m. youtube again and it froze up right before the song started and i threw a big fit and got all bent out of shape and it drives my boyfriend up the wall but i am just that way. i know you're not allowed to use that as an excuse. and i always just expect that it shouldn't effect other people but i know that it does and it also affects me. see, which one is right? effect or affect?
nevermind.