get off my back

today we went to our 2nd relationship counseling with this guy who has the same last name as my dad. i feel like i don't want him to be disappointed in me. he made me see how obvious it is that i am deluding myself by thinking that i can drink alcohol every day and get away with it when i have alcoholism for at least two generations back on both sides of my family. HELLO????

but i have this really childish type of thinking that says, "it is not FAIR that i can't destroy myself and get away with it!!" i know, that is ridiculous.