a lot of people ask me, "what are you gonna do today?"
and usually i'm like, i dunno, nothing?
but i am always doing things. i am just impulsive and feel contstrained by plans, however i also know that my life is too unstructured for my own good and there is actually a TON of stuff that i need to be doing today and every day.

i have to think of my day as though i am clocking in and pretend that someone will chew me out if i don't get shit done. someone like Judge Judy for instance. she is mean! but like, i have to pretend that there is a mean judge hovering over my shoulder ready to embarrass me to death by chewing me out in front of everyone like i am a child.

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