having people be really critical of me has made me feel more critical of myself which is probably a good thing actually because i think that being social creatures we require a certain amount of social checks and balances and i am a really isolated person so it isn't surprising that i have problematic social encounters.
plus both of my parents were completely antisocial when i was growing up. seriously, neither of them had friends. i think it was because they were so young when they had me so they didn't fit in well with any demographic at that time? plus my dad was in the airport so whatever, i don't know.